He needs to miss me. I mean, I have to let him miss me.
I have been reading blogs about Twin flames and Empath lovers and I came across this great question posted by a sad lady in a once great empath relationship. Her question was how to keep the energy clear and good and not fall into a dark place together where its impossible to get out of.
I think truly that all romances face this whether empathic or not, but when high frequency connections are also at play it does become of the utmost importance to keep your energy clear if you want to stay off that static path.
I wanted to tell her to go have angry sex.
But I didn't. Angry sex would work though. it would release the lower vibration through a great naughty orgasm and leave them both in each others loving embrace. But I didn't post that. People find my solutions a bit too left field I am finding.
But back to letting Mr. Beautiful Crazy have some time away from me so he can miss me. This is a new awareness that sparked over the past couple days. The original reason for pulling energies back is so that we could both focus on our own lives as we tend to get very drawn into each other very deeply and really accomplish nothing when hooked in.
So I taught him how to clear his chakra's and how to block my energy and how to contain his own. That has been a wonderful lesson this past few weeks. Elevated our relationship tenfold. I am free to joke with him now as we are not so sensitive to each other. It's truly great.
But now why the missing me part?
We text each other all day long everyday. truly its quite ridiculous I am sure or maybe its not, but for our minds to be tied up that much into each other is too overwhelming for us. But to stay tethered is a must.
We truly are miserable without each other...... and thats not a "We are both afraid to be alone" kind of miserable.... no its more like all our gifts leave us and we are kinda lifeless without each other. We can be happy and even thrive, but its without super powers and incredible highs. Neither one of us want to go back to that life, we want each other, we want the better version of ourselves.
I am trying to shift the relationship out of Super Natural Twin Flame Union stuff into something more tangible and real. So I am learning how to flirt.
Ugh. I said it. Yup I am learning how to flirt. How to be Cute and Coy. How to invoke his deepest man instincts, to want to ravage me. Boys are so simple I am learning. They need to know whats in it for them, as soon as they have that motivation they are all yours, on all levels.
I have Mr. Beautiful Crazy on so many levels it is ridiculous. We are so crazy connected I can barely stand the connection sometimes. But I haven't been able to turn him on. Like Fuck, for real, he couldn't see me in that way no matter how I tried to explain the elevation our relationship would take if we could go there. I felt like Amy Farrah Fowler with my explanations.
And its not my features, I have ran out and physically experienced this many multiple times since meeting him two year ago..... men are attracted to me, this I am comfortable with. But two years later I still sit in the friend zone. A wild in love friend zone that life times together has been discussed, but friend zone none the less. My lips are not okay with this.
This guy could be my forever, he really could and most likely is.... If I could get him to have angry sex with me!! lol Not a joke even.
That is mad passion to be ravaged like that. But in order to get there he has to be wildly turned on by me.
So above all the superficial stuff that he may need, there needs to be some space.... some time away.... he needs to want you, miss you.... then NEED you.
Do I fear he will just find some easy chick like I used to be to fill the need? Yup, I sure do. He has talked about it before, with his landlady below him who is ten years younger then him. Yup I worry about that, it could happen. But fuck that, he is so into me that he would want to save that for me.
The guy loves me, this I do not doubt. In so many ways he loves me. He WANTS to love me in that way as well.
So I am giving him space, not texting ..........and talking to you instead. I actually even feel good and excited about this, of course its only a few moments into my .....a 'la resistance'.
So maybe I will stay and lurk around here for a bit.
Follow The White Rabbit.....